Back to Square One

So my plans didn't pan out the way I expected. Everything was set but for a few minor technicalities. I really thought it was my year. My time to start a new adventure.

I feel like I am back at square one. I feel so lost because the rest of my plans have been made redundant. And I spent the better part of the year developing and improving myself, so much growth that has me feeling so uncomfortable being so plan-less.

It's been a month now and I gave mourned tearless-ly. It's now so hard to think up a new strategy. My goals are still the same:

●To write. Right now it's just for my blog.

Pigalles Pigalles

I could sing a love song for my new fascination. Pigalles.

Oh Christian!

Style Bloggers have them, my friends saved like kids with summer jobs for them. (I will be joining them)

I have no more words.

Just look at them.

Back Again

I took time off to go to visit my family during the holiday, I had so much fun and when I came back I had to take sometime to get my groove back. 

So many changes and disappointments. First of all, it turns out that I won't be going to do my MSc this year because PTDF has no funds left. (*whispers* there are unconfirmed rumors that the ES channeled the money to other.. *cough*) 

So with an extra year I have to pull my parachute, my plan B. Work at all I wanna do: designing, sewing, volunteering for an NGO. Nothing to lose attitude and also to start  managing my money (Money Bending). 

What else?

Loving Disney Couture

photo credit disneystore.com and disneycouture.com

I am so in love with Disney couture right now. I first saw this Mini Mouse cuff on a fashion blogger, it took me a while to recognize the shape. Immediately I went to Asos to see if it was available. Turns out that they not only make them with Swarovski crystals that's more affordable but also high end jewelry with precious stones.

Fresh Laundry

There's nothing like a fresh laundry metaphor. We all keep making up some everyday because its the simplest activity that that we wish we could replicate so easily in all our lives.

The physical action itself is straight forward, put dirty clothes in water, add soap, scrub gently, rinse and hang to dry.

All of a sudden I just appreciate this simple action and I can't think of a really good metaphor to use right now. As I made my way to the shower this morning, I saw my laundry hamper and it was full.

Never Enough

Earlier last week I was resolved to be positive. I had plans. Though I have started to put some in motion and several things are happening that have spiked my happiness radar a bit, I still feel drawn and like nothing's working out.

First off my job is getting to me. You know how they say 'do the work you love and you'll never work a day in your life'? Well I don't enjoy the job I do, so its real work. Just when I think I have gotten the hang of it, curve balls come. I give and give and give and they say its never enough. The company might be in jeopardy but what can I do? I have been promoted but no pay increase has been initiated. Its just demoralizing.

Midnight Musings I

I am happy, some sort of happy anyway. I can afford the Galaxy Note 8 yay! But it felt too easy just going out to get it. All of a sudden I am questioning myself, even though I have always wanted a reader and now I can get a reader and a tablet in one… do I really need it? Yes I do for sketches and blogging and reading and so much more but..

I just feel like maybe it should be a reward, not just a birthday present to myself. So I have given myself a challenge to make some things happen first. I have always had a list of stuff I want to accomplish and half the year is gone already. Its time to put in real effort into realizing my dreams.

First off, I have an assignment to write for a fashion magazine but I am stumped about what to write about. My forte has always been fiction and I pretty much struggle at non fiction. But I don’t want the opportunity to pass without at least trying.

How to take care of your External Hard Disk

Disclaimer: These activities were done by a careless person. Please do not attempt this at home, loss of valuable property is possible.

The excitement that overcame me when I finally got my External Hard disk in my hands cannot be put into words. Yes, I could finally afford electronic upgrades by myself without asking help form anyone.

One whole Terra-Byte for moi! The plan was to back up all my 500GB worth of crap and delete everything from my Laptop so applications would work faster and better. But I cut the transition down to bits so the movement would be gradual.

But so far all I used my Ex HD for was to ferry the tons of series I download while at work and watch at home on my laptop. My Ex HD was my virtual La La Land of no end. It came with a hard case that I was proud of and even buffered with papers for extra padding.

Disaster struck.

Things I Learned From The Game of Thrones

The 3rd (and 2nd to the last) season of Game of Thrones just ended. It has been a suspense-filled ride so far and I really can't wait for the next season even though I already have a sneak-peek at how it ends.

While waiting for the 3rd season to start I had to know what happened next, so I got the books and read only from where the series stopped. I am so impressed with the producers and writers for keeping to the story line of the book. This is the first time I am seeing a true recreation of a book on TV. Even though I am so in love with the story now, I must admit I wouldn't have chosen to read the book given the chance.

I think there are several reasons why the story of the Game of Thrones stands out, it reminds me of so many life lessons we know intuitively but refuse to admit to ourselves:

The bad guys win, almost always.

Beginnings

I am a writer.

I am an environmentalist

I am a photographer

I am a fashionista

I am a dreamer...

It took about 2 decades to get all this information, just five lines. Knowing oneself isn't an easy task, it took a major change to help me realize that even though I couldn't carry all my material possessions to some place new, there were other more important things in me that I could take anywhere I wanted to.

Do not fear Change.