Back to Square One

So my plans didn't pan out the way I expected. Everything was set but for a few minor technicalities. I really thought it was my year. My time to start a new adventure.

I feel like I am back at square one. I feel so lost because the rest of my plans have been made redundant. And I spent the better part of the year developing and improving myself, so much growth that has me feeling so uncomfortable being so plan-less.

It's been a month now and I gave mourned tearless-ly. It's now so hard to think up a new strategy. My goals are still the same:

●To write. Right now it's just for my blog.

●To move my career path to the environmental field. Even though my studies are on hold and my search for work experience is still null. I'll still continue studying and researching.  It's my passion.
●To travel. Bali, Bora Bora, Morocco, Namibia, Belgium etc. I want to visit every continent. And to go with someone that would be lovely.
●To learn photography. With all the exposure,  lights, pixels... what don't I want with photograph. Just an enthusiast.
●To learn more languages. French us too typical,  Spanish, Italian...
●To design and make my own clothes. Getting a brother sewing machine soon and then fabrics from a good source.
●To start a company from my passion. I have been hooked on entrepreneur . com and Inc . com for the longest time. And I have downloaded 4hour Work Week and Lean In. Telling...
●To fall in love with myself and do more for me. I have a feeling I am not doing enough for myself, and I owe myself the life I deserve.

This is it so far. Now to work on the bridges...

Reminds me of the bridge engin...

So I have to look at this extra time as a chance to create my own adventure. I have been looking at going to a resort hotel either in Nigeria or Ghana. I saw a quaint beach front Inn owned by a French couple in Ghana online. I can already picture myself there. Just a quiet time away, no work, just to write, draw, plan...