What to do in a boring town

Abuja

We all know it's hard moving to new place, especially moving from a big bustling city to a developing town. I did. It's been a year and it hasn't been easy. I have been exposed as being shy and a little socially challenged. Making new friends is kind of hard especially if you are also working on not losing the ones back home. Finding things to do in a town that is less exciting than one you are used to is... well... challenging. In this developing town I live and work in, it’s so monotonous. It's all about gardens and night clubs. I am a literary person, I like wild nights spaced with quiet poetry recitals.

The transition to a slower pace can and did expose new sides of me; I have been the couch potato, the procrastinator and the burgeoning hermit. I then decided to get off my butt and do stuff. But not only my bad side came out; I became more entrepreneurial, independent, curious, more put together with thoughts and plans for the future. It has been a ride.

For you out there in this same situation don't lose hope, you just have a new opportunity to do something different.

Take the chance

Back to Square One

So my plans didn't pan out the way I expected. Everything was set but for a few minor technicalities. I really thought it was my year. My time to start a new adventure.

I feel like I am back at square one. I feel so lost because the rest of my plans have been made redundant. And I spent the better part of the year developing and improving myself, so much growth that has me feeling so uncomfortable being so plan-less.

It's been a month now and I gave mourned tearless-ly. It's now so hard to think up a new strategy. My goals are still the same:

●To write. Right now it's just for my blog.

Back Again

I took time off to go to visit my family during the holiday, I had so much fun and when I came back I had to take sometime to get my groove back. 

So many changes and disappointments. First of all, it turns out that I won't be going to do my MSc this year because PTDF has no funds left. (*whispers* there are unconfirmed rumors that the ES channeled the money to other.. *cough*) 

So with an extra year I have to pull my parachute, my plan B. Work at all I wanna do: designing, sewing, volunteering for an NGO. Nothing to lose attitude and also to start  managing my money (Money Bending). 

What else?

Never Enough

Earlier last week I was resolved to be positive. I had plans. Though I have started to put some in motion and several things are happening that have spiked my happiness radar a bit, I still feel drawn and like nothing's working out.

First off my job is getting to me. You know how they say 'do the work you love and you'll never work a day in your life'? Well I don't enjoy the job I do, so its real work. Just when I think I have gotten the hang of it, curve balls come. I give and give and give and they say its never enough. The company might be in jeopardy but what can I do? I have been promoted but no pay increase has been initiated. Its just demoralizing.

Midnight Musings I

I am happy, some sort of happy anyway. I can afford the Galaxy Note 8 yay! But it felt too easy just going out to get it. All of a sudden I am questioning myself, even though I have always wanted a reader and now I can get a reader and a tablet in one… do I really need it? Yes I do for sketches and blogging and reading and so much more but..

I just feel like maybe it should be a reward, not just a birthday present to myself. So I have given myself a challenge to make some things happen first. I have always had a list of stuff I want to accomplish and half the year is gone already. Its time to put in real effort into realizing my dreams.

First off, I have an assignment to write for a fashion magazine but I am stumped about what to write about. My forte has always been fiction and I pretty much struggle at non fiction. But I don’t want the opportunity to pass without at least trying.

Things I Learned From The Game of Thrones

The 3rd (and 2nd to the last) season of Game of Thrones just ended. It has been a suspense-filled ride so far and I really can't wait for the next season even though I already have a sneak-peek at how it ends.

While waiting for the 3rd season to start I had to know what happened next, so I got the books and read only from where the series stopped. I am so impressed with the producers and writers for keeping to the story line of the book. This is the first time I am seeing a true recreation of a book on TV. Even though I am so in love with the story now, I must admit I wouldn't have chosen to read the book given the chance.

I think there are several reasons why the story of the Game of Thrones stands out, it reminds me of so many life lessons we know intuitively but refuse to admit to ourselves:

The bad guys win, almost always.

Beginnings

I am a writer.

I am an environmentalist

I am a photographer

I am a fashionista

I am a dreamer...

It took about 2 decades to get all this information, just five lines. Knowing oneself isn't an easy task, it took a major change to help me realize that even though I couldn't carry all my material possessions to some place new, there were other more important things in me that I could take anywhere I wanted to.

Do not fear Change.