Earlier last week I was resolved to be positive. I had plans. Though I have started to put some in motion and several things are happening that have spiked my happiness radar a bit, I still feel drawn and like nothing's working out.
First off my job is getting to me. You know how they say 'do the work you love and you'll never work a day in your life'? Well I don't enjoy the job I do, so its real work. Just when I think I have gotten the hang of it, curve balls come. I give and give and give and they say its never enough. The company might be in jeopardy but what can I do? I have been promoted but no pay increase has been initiated. Its just demoralizing.
Its always all about marketing, marketing, marketing... Ideas ideas ideas. I know I have given a lot of ingenious out-of-the box ideas but they all get shot down and yet they ask for more ideas! By the way, my job isn't marketing, not even trained in it.
The only upside is that now I am not too scared of marketing like I was in the past. I would market my own product like hell but this company... they should take more risks that's how business is gotten isn't it?
They are sucking my joy.
Positives, I have found where I can buy the envelope purses cheap and in different colours. I really want to make my own to sell, but seeing as I have plans of changing locations in September a sewing machine can't make it under the baggage limit. I finally got my academic reference with the help of my friend (thanks Darl!). I got paid for 2 purses I sold a while back. I lost some weight (But I seem to have put it back on) I have so many ideas for my environmental blog and a couple for my stab at being in a published mag. What else? Marketing my FLP biz is still ongoing.
*sigh* So much. Trevor called too. Trevor is a whole book and a chapter and I am trying to not write about him so I don't have reminders for prosperity.
My dreams right now are all about my imagined and-hopefully-soon-to-come-true near future.
Bebe keep your head up.
Never give up.
