Midnight Musings I

I am happy, some sort of happy anyway. I can afford the Galaxy Note 8 yay! But it felt too easy just going out to get it. All of a sudden I am questioning myself, even though I have always wanted a reader and now I can get a reader and a tablet in one… do I really need it? Yes I do for sketches and blogging and reading and so much more but..

I just feel like maybe it should be a reward, not just a birthday present to myself. So I have given myself a challenge to make some things happen first. I have always had a list of stuff I want to accomplish and half the year is gone already. Its time to put in real effort into realizing my dreams.

First off, I have an assignment to write for a fashion magazine but I am stumped about what to write about. My forte has always been fiction and I pretty much struggle at non fiction. But I don’t want the opportunity to pass without at least trying.

Secondly, I joined flp just for a chance to get extra cash. Its so much work, talking to people (which I am getting good at and was the other purpose I joined) then trying to convince them. I have to work harder, I will be happier if I could overcome and get results.

Thirdly, I don’t like going places alone. I don’t know maybe I don’t like my own company enough. Once again I look to my friend who vacationed alone, if she could do it maybe I can walk to my favorite restaurant and have a drink and enjoy my own company. And write.

I saw this online and I really want it to be my look now. All white and clean and a little pop of colour. My wardrobe is full of mainly blacks, lots of tans and neutrals. I want to brighten up my look to reflect how I feel or how I want to feel inside. No more waiting for someone. I think I should start planning a vacation.

 Photo courtesy Asos facebook page

In the meantime, maybe I should make a flip board of places I want to visit and why.

Sincerely yours, insomniac-ly.